It's the date to summarize what I did and how I became after one year passed. One sentence is a good conclusion: I spent a part of my life to pursue my dream and I lost them.
Neither interesting things or miracle happened. Time is just going by, so on my despair and fear accumulating.
Do not show you sympathies to me. I never regret what I decided. What I fear or regret is my ability could not match my ambition. How a strike was.
I failed so many time last year. Half of confident has lost.
But anothor half of confident left. A good news, isn't it?